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I was trying to figure out a way to cut another 200 calories from my diet so i can hopefully loose 2 pounds a week instead of one.  But my new plan is to burn 200 calories instead.  I’m already eating quite a bit less than i’m used to, and i think eating any less may cause me to cheat or go completely off track.  So starting tomorrow i’m going to burn 200 cals in the morning, hopefully even before breakfast!  I’m pretty tired so that’s all I can post right now, last week i lost a pound, maybe this week i will loose two =)

night buddies!

do you guys have any advice about what to do when it’s only 6 pm and your still hungry even though you ate all your allowed to eat for the day?  I usually stay up until 11 most nights with school work, so i have several hours to go before bed.  I did my workout today but i still should not eat anything else if i want to loose at least one pound this week.  What i need to do from now on is spread my calories out more evenly throughout the day, i ate too much before my work out so now i can’t have anything else.  Darn, i’ll try and not do that tomorrow!

if any of you have run into this problem (realizing that you’ve already hit the max calories for the day well before bedtime) please share how you avoid eating until the next morning.  Thanks! =)

seriously, as corny as it sounds all of your comments, encouragement and just reading your blogs has really helped! This may be the first full week of staying on track since i joined not too long ago. =) Although i only lost about one pound, I feel a lot healthier, more confident and just more myself over all.

Most weekends i end up staying in one night because i eat too much comfort food and don’t feel well enough to go out with my friends. But that didn’t happen this weekend and i really do miss a lot when i don’t spend time with my friends out on the town. Every time my girls and i go out we meet new friends, and bond a bit more. I’m still working on creating more solid friendships because i was away all summer and its easy to loose touch. So every weekend counts. Most of my week days are spent at school doing work, and i don’t want to waste another night at home with a pizza and pint of ice cream.

Thanks again to all my buddies and I hope i can be motivation for ya’ll too!

I am 23 and single, i have dated a good number of guys, i’ve had a few boyfriends and obviously since i am single none of them have worked out. My recent ex works at the bar most of my town goes to at least once a weekend, including my friends. He seems to have a pattern of dating/hooking up with/then discarding girls who go to this bar. One of them was me (although we did have a two month relationship that was wonderful until he apparently go bored one day) two other girls he hooked up with then just stopped calling are two friends of mine (he started seeing them then stopped after i moved away for the summer and i didn’t become close friends with those girls until I got back).

but anyways, i just think he is treating all of us in a very disrespectful way. One of my friends confessed to me last night that she thinks he is impossible to get over, like he is just too wonderful or something. I couldn’t believe my ears! I mean I know deep down i still wish he would change his mind take me in his arms and never let go, but i really think the only reason i feel that way is because i am still single, upset from the breakup and haven’t found a new guy to fill the void he left me with.

I really hope my friend doesn’t think he’s impossible to get over forever, because anyone who treats women (who are human beings by the way) the way he treats them does not deserve a woman at all - and he certainly doesn’t deserve to have every girl he tosses aside become heartbroken and follow him around forever just hoping to be picked back up again.

I tried on my “skinny jeans” this morning. I have like 6 pairs of them! Thats right, six pairs or more of jeans that I can just barely button. I can button them, but it isn’t too pretty, lol.

So they are my motivation, as usual, but they work harder to keep me motivated when I actually try them on every once and a while and remind myself what I am working towards. I feel like i’m so close, but in reality it’s going to take at least 5 or 6 weeks of serious dedication to get back into those jeans and look good!

So I will strut around in my “comfy jeans” which are actually the only jeans I can fit into at the moment! These used to be my baggy jeans, but now they fit just perfectly, which isn’t perfect at all.

I was trying on my skinny jeans this morning because I know I am going out with my friends tonight, and for some reason I woke up with a bunch of energy and very excited to go out with my friends and dance the night away! To my dismay my favorite “skinny jeans” still don’t look good enough/fit well enough to wear. But that’s ok, they will be my motivation to keep up with the 1,500 cal daily diet (unless i exercise then I can add more - but gotta wait till my Achilles’ tendons heal up).

It’s been like four days that I have been on track, which isn’t a lot but it’s a start, you gotta start somewhere. I usually go off my diet over the weekend, so this weekend I will keep my eye on the prize, skinny jeans and cute halloween costumes!!

I went to crossfit yesterday and somehow I ended up really hurting both my Achilles tendons.  I iced them as soon as i got home, took some ibuprofen and went to bed early.  Now it’s the next morning and I am icing them again.  I think they feel a little better but it still really hurts to walk around, I think wearing heals will actually help keep my tendons from hurting too much when i walk.  So now that I am injured and I am glad that so far I have kept my calorie intake low enough to still burn 500 cals a day even without exercise.  Lets hope I can keep up with this, shouldn’t be too hard since I need to eat 1,500 cals or less a day (according to the calculations) and i’ll still be creating a 500 cal deficite.

Can’t wait untill I am able to exercise again so i can burn more and eat more!  Maybe i should take up swimming.  Does anyone have experience with Achilles Tendon pain/injury and advice about how to treat it and or avoid injuring it in the future?  I read that stretching and warming up the calf muscle will help prevent this from happening again.  I also want to purchase a wrap i can put around my tendon/ankle that will provide support and a convenient way to keep the tendons cold/iced.

Yup Halloween is a big motivator for me right now. I’d really like to wear a pirate outfit with my friends and feel confident in it. I always find that i have more fun when i go out when i feel good about how I look! I’m sure everyone else feels the same way. And Halloween is a great motivator especially since it’s a little less than six weeks away, maybe if i stay on track (for once!) I will loose a pound a week and feel totally fabulous by the time halloween gets here. Wish me luck!
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I did not get to sleep last night because i had sooo much to do to get ready for my presentation that i had today at 1:30.  It went pretty well, just glad it’s over!  I have to say it is very strange to try and eat normal amounts and types of food when i have not slept at all, my body was so confused about whether it’s supposed to be hungry or not!  But thankfully i took a four hour nap after my presentation and i feel a lot better.

I think I did “ok” with my eating over the past two days of no sleep, I was keeping track of my progress on “FitDay”  but this is the fourth time that stupid website deleted two of my days for no reason at all!  I am not using that program anymore…might just use this website or keep it written down instead.

I tried a peanut butter protein bar by the brand “Think Slim” there website is: http://www.thinkthinbars.com/   I highly recommend them!  I found them in the organic section of my grocery store, it’s 20 grams protein and oh so yummy!  Tastes like i’m cheating on my diet but i’m not really as long as I use it to replace or be the main part of one of my meals for the day.

I’m about to head out with some friends to the bars, but i’ve been really good about not drinking and only having water, I have to get up early for class and i don’t want the extra calories that comes in girlie drinks (even tonic water and vodka can be like 100 cals!)

Have a good night everyone!

Monday went well, I used yesterday to get back into my work-out and eating routine. I went to crossfit class and it was challenging, but I know if i keep up with healthy eating and adequate sleep my endurance and strength will increase.

I feel much happier and better after just a day and a half of staying on track. Last night I almost caved and had some unhealthy food even though i wasn’t hungry, but instead i took a hot shower and went to bed. That’s what i need to do every night i feel the unnecessary urge to eat. I still had homework to finish but instead of staying up until 3am finishing it i went to sleep around midnight and woke up at 5:30 to finish my work for the day. I was so much more rested and when i was done my work it was breakfast time and i could treat myself to some yummy healthy food rather than eating high sugar foods last night and trying to stay up later than i should.

So far so good, hopefully each blog to come will be this positive =)

That’s what i’m telling myself. I plan to start being healthy completely tomorrow (Monday). I’m going to get up, go jogging and eat well balanced meals throughout the day. I am planning them ahead of time so it will be easier to do. I spent the weekend, basically eating whatever I wanted. Which kind of left me feeling gross, but honestly when I ate only enough to fill me up I had a lot more energy than usual. On my healthy plan I will make sure to include enough calories in each meal to give myself enough energy to be happy and up-beat throughout the day. Over the past few months as i mentioned in my previous post i would go on meal plans that were too low in calories which made me moody, irritable and always led to binges after a few days. I have decided to end that cycle. I am going to look at this whole “being healthy” thing in a larger view, not so much day by day, but month by month. If i stick to my healthy plan of exercise and realistic eating after four weeks time i should notice that my pants fit a little better. Then after two month they will fit a lot better and so on. I used to get really frustrated when I did not see immediate results and think to myself “what is the point!” then i’d eat some really bad food and feel even worse. But i’m not going to do that anymore. I am going to embrace my body as it is right now today so i won’t think “what’s the point” i will think “i’m pretty now and I will be even prettier and healthier in a month”.

I am following the Zone diet for my meal plan, it’s supposed to be the best way to create well balanced meals that fuel your mind and body while allowing your body to burn the most fat possible. So here I go… I might even re-read this post daily to remind myself what my plan is and why i’m doing it. It’s so easy to loose sight of a goal when the results are not immediate, but i’m going to do my best.

I also plan on talking to a counselor at my school about my eating disorder, I don’t want to talk to my parents or friends because i don’t know how they could help, it will probably just put a strain on those relationships. So with this healthier lifestyle i’m starting tomorrow and seeing a counselor for support i should begin to start digging myself out of this hole I created.